When I say I still miss you, I feel like I’m lying!

When I say I still miss you, I feel like I’m lying,

 Because, I still do, but I don’t want to misguide, my heart

I know we are apart,

I know you are all gone, and you won’t return.

I feel like I don’t need you, I feel like I don’t want anyone like you,

 But don’t know, every time why though?

I look for your presence; I look for your soul.

I look for someone like you, in someone else’s core.

I know it’s unrealistic, and I know, I seem like a fool,

But I still look for your presence, I look for your soul.

Sometimes, I feel like I will go crazy,

Platonic, something very temporary.

I feel I can do this, I know, I don't miss you (maybe) 

I know, I only miss those moments shared with you (maybe)

 And then, I feel like I’m lying, because I still do.

When I am lonely, I act like I’m holding your hands,

When I am alone, l act like I’m kissing your lips.

When I want to talk, I act like I'm in a conversation with you,

 Keeping my head on your chest, listening to some soothing tracks in between.

And, when I know I can’t have “us” but still, I just miss,

And I wish if we were “us” just for quite a bit, a bit longer.

 But then, when I say I still miss you, I feel like I’m lying...

- 2019.04.22