Expressing it to understand it myself....

 

Where do I even start, do you remember I said, "You are not my type"

Well, despite this seems like "I am already falling head-over-heels"

The way you look straight into my eyes when you speak with no filter

The way you confessed, saying "how much you liked me"

The time you said, "You want to hear all my stories"

The night you called me..... 

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"When I say YES-YES-YES" You go "NO-NO-NO"

And, when I am going "NO-NO-NO" you have to go "YES-YES-YES" no? 

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I don't even know what I like about you... but I just do

Is it lust, can it be? It can be right, but more than that the pleasure I get by just being with you is undeniable, I love hearing your voice, I just love seeing your face, and I enjoy your company and your vibe...and YOU in general.

Well, to be honest, it would be the cherry on the cake if I could hold your hands, rest on your lap/shoulder, kiss you.... and touch you as I am with you... but I do not think it's more to do with the thrust of sexual something... or can it be? IDK, see I cannot express or even understand "what exactly it is" but I know that I really do LIKE YOU!

Saying so, there are a hundred things I dislike about you, I won't lie but, even with all these flaws and dislikeness I am surprised "HOW COME I LIKE THIS GUY SO MUCH"... is it LOVE? I do not know.... maybe it is not but, I would be lying if I run away from the fact "How much I like you"

Will it last forever, maybe NO, but the truth is "for now, for the time to come, I know how much I like you... so much so that my heart pounds, I feel my nerves, I... what do I even say"

UGH... strange, I have not felt this for years, moreover, as I am a bit grown-up person compared to my past, this side of me is very much new and unfamiliar, I am just coming to know this weird side of me... 

- To be continued