Rendezvous

You know the funny part about you or I say us, we have not even touched each other but it feels like every part of my body knows you, you- Kancha feel like “I know you forever, and I got some kind of authority and rights over you, over you” I mean, I know I don’t- that’s more than clear but “it feels like I do” … ugghhh

“I called you for a lunch, and you asked me for the beer well, it was a plan we both had since forever. You have been asking me for so long, I have been denying it, ignoring it though my answer has always been the “YES" or somewhere between that "MAYBE" part but never a "NO.” However, I could not express it, I know I must know my boundaries and I always tried to maintain that. But finally, we did sit for a beer though I did not drink a sip, and even without drinking, I was just so happy to be with you, your endless and free-spirited conversation got me so hooked, we straight up spent five hours in that pub- “haya malai ajai basnu thiyo k, IDK kura ajai k garnu thiyo tara thiyo k garnu....!”

“Looking straight into your eyes, having you so close… speaking with no filter getting that freedom to be me and you to be you. The beauty was in being ourselves, we did not care or had to worry about anything, “no matter, who did what, who was wrong, and what happened in the past, or is happening right now” we got this togetherness- just hearing each other out, we got this luxury to share it all, and like a cherry on the cake it feels like a treat to have each other… ah I want more from us”

“The blessing or the curse, IDK what it is but I know one thing if we ever fall we can count on each other, just the customary is that we just cannot be with each other”

“You said “I LOVE YOU” so easily, so naturally as if it’s the universal fact… you said it thrice at least that much I could remember and heard it loud and clear, maybe, maybe you have said it more than that but the thing is you said it…You just said it and I could not even reflect or reciprocate to any of that, the first time you said it, I was taken aback, and afterward, it felt natural.. as if I have heard you say "I love you" every day nonetheless, I just hope, hope that you mean it... at least you sounded as if you meant it or, am I just that naive and stupid.”

“As you got your hand out in the car, I was in shock thinking “what’s happening, is he resting his hand over me or on the seat behind me” but as I said, I was furthermore shocked, as you hugged me- oh dear, I couldn’t even get myself straight, I was bowing down, just so scared thinking, “what if we kiss, you....” And, you did it thrice, STUPID-dumbass… anyways, that gave me the liberty because of which I was able to rest my head on your shoulder, well could not do it for long but it felt eternal, just having you beside me just for that 15 minutes ride back home… felt like you and I have been like this forever… nothing felt pushed, confused, bad or so... nothing felt fake, it was just you and me as if we have been like this like- always, together.”

How many stories do I even tell/share, there are many… it was just for 5 hours but it was no less than a movie however, however... it is unlike everything was a fairytale that evening, we had our ups and downs, “the ugly truth, the pain, the craziness, the laugher, and the endless smiles… everything was there” and overall, the beauty is in the fact that we hold each other up, couldn’t even realize “how fast five hours got spent and it was just the time to get back home…” Well, no surprise but still, “surprise, surprise, surprise” as soon I was back, he called, and asked me if we can meet again well, there is another story to that… but for now, let me end it here.

#PlatonicRelationship?

16th Feb.