Battle

Every single day I feel like I am in a battle, and a never ending battle and the battle, that is with myslef and within me, where my heart and my brain is fighting hard. And then I am not so sure, I remain confused every now and then. Though I know what I want, I don't know what I really want. I tend to have so many options sometime that my mind starts battling again, wondering which option to go for and sometime I am in a battle of being optionless. I don't know is it just me or there are many like me but still, sometime its way too much annoying, feels like why me? (But I know there are many like me, under same problem than again its a human nature, that we see our problem as the biggest one than the others).
Meanwhile to overcome these problems and win my battle i go and try to figure it out, i look for encouragement and inspiration and while doing so I have seen miracles happening, people winning the battles, I have read  about them and I then feel like, I know how can I bring those life changing miracles in my life as well, but saying so even with these clear concept having on my mind set somehow,I am just so unable to apply it, to change and joy the beauty of my life, the life that I have been gifted to enjoy and spread love and get love in return.  But I am just not so able to do so..because I feel like I am in battle where there is no other opponents but I am creating my own rough roads.