THE FIRST DATE

When someone says the “Date” that is also the “first date” what comes to your head and of course, your heart? Do the butterflies start to fly inside your stomach? Okay, let’s not make it too cringy but, still don’t we all cherish it a little bit, somewhere there in our heart, don’t we?

I remember the time I went for my first date, it was after my a-levels, and it was also after my very first horrific skin problems that I was going through, lots of breakouts and flaky skins. And, on the top of it all, I went to “my” very first date with all the insecurities that I can only count.

By the way, before I even start the story, I must tell you, I have turned the guy quite a few times- and this on its own, is a long story of itself. Nonetheless, I really need to appreciate the guy as he finally got me to say “Yes” and we went on my very first date (note* I still think he doesn’t know it was my first date>> up until now if he reads it and realizes it).

(*Disclaimer: by now everyone who knows me knows it, being late is my synonym. So, no wonder, there was I, LATE even on my first date- voilà)

Nevertheless, coming to the point, I think the timing of the movie that was provided to me by the guy was 12 something and I reached 5-10 minutes late. So, I was out of breath, running and embarrassed thinking, “Girl, you did it again- the timing and the timing, NEVER ON TIME”

And, so after all the hustle and bustle, as I finally reached- there was this guy, standing next to the coffee shop, kind of dressed up. I thought, he would be pissed, as I was late (as always) but to my surprise, he was calm and composed yet, as I was apologizing for being late, I came to acknowledge that undertaking my “never being able to reach anywhere on time” habit, he gave me the wrong timing, as the movie wasn't of 12 something but, it was of 1 something, so yes, I can say I made it on time after all (hahaha) thanks to the guy!

Anyways, we went to this movie starring Ranveer Singh and it was kind of fun. I normally believed; I don’t like it when people talk in between the movies but that guy changed my perception. In fact, I realized its fun to talk and get into those tiny-freaky details of the movies and crack jokes about them in between (note* I AM REALLY BAD WITH JOKES- I don’t get the humor, so I don't even try). However, but at times, I was a bit overdrawn out of his constant purling but still, to be frank to my own surprise, all in all, I did enjoy his company.

Rewinding a little bit, before all this movie, fun-good time was happening, as we were waiting on the lounge (note* the time before the movie actually started), he talked something about the other girls and this-that, which kind of turned me down, making me question myself, unto the point “why did I even come here”. However, as the movie began, everything settled and it was again all good; so, by the time the movie ended, I had my own expectations- as we see in the movies and hear it from others, I expected that we would go for dinner. Thereby, I was expecting not much but the dinner (*I was really naive so, I really didn’t have too much of an expectation but I really-really thought we would go for dinner and have a real conversation, I thought, it is a must, I thought that's how the first date or a date in general goes- like eating together or so... I don’t know why I thought so, but I did) and, to my disappointment- there was no dinner!

So, I remember, we were standing outside the rising mall and I as mentioned- "there was no dinner"...and the REASON? Well, he said, he needed to go somewhere, and deep down inside, I was like “REALLY!”?

I even empowered myself and asked, “if we can go and have something quickly” and even supposedly said, “I am hungry” (note* I was not, I ate lots of nachos- I was not hungry but still, I said so- erg). Anyways, he replied, “I cannot, I have to go somewhere” yet, he insisted to drop me at the bus park from where I can go back home.

But frankly speaking, I was so devastated and angry, thinking like, it was my first date- to which I said “NO” so many times, yet it happened and its ending like this- I can only control my anger and all the other insecurities that were going on inside me (*sigh).

On the way to the bus park, he did tell me that, he was going to our common friends’ relative’s funeral or so, but trust me, I was so pissed that I was not buying that reason at all, and didn’t say much. And, he dropped me at the park, and I got the bus and went home.

Throughout the time, I was so-so-so disappointed in myself- wondering “why did I go”- it was also, the insecurities that made me feel that “I am not good enough, and he just made an excuse and left” and, I was wondering- maybe this and maybe that.

However, in between these thoughts of mine, later in the evening, I received a snap on Snapchat, I opened it and he was wearing my gift and asking me how he looked, and “me being me” as always- out of anger, which gets me to this mood of “I DO NOT CARE AT ALL” ...replied, something very lame and as expected with “I DO DON’T CARE” type of vibe, with the answer that is (as much as I can remember) “You look good” and yes that was it! He saw the message and didn’t reply, nor did I initiate much afterward, and as it happens in Snapchat, it all disappeared.

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"la sakyo yeti ho mero so-called 1st date ko katha"