feelings are stupid!

These feelings are so stupid, I mean I find myself as an idiot whenever I get occupied by these emotional stuff. My brain doesn’t function properly, it works in a very injudicious manner, I can’t figure what’s exactly happening, and I don’t know is it right or is it wrong. More importantly, more than the fact what’s going in my head, I go mad wondering what’s there in other person’s head. How is he thinking, is it the same feeling that’s emerging and rolling like mine or it’s completely different? Is he doing this because he means it or is it causal- he is like this with every other friend? Oh-God, why am I acting so reckless, I feel like a child, the imprudent kid! And whatever am I feeling or thinking is it valid? I mean is it real, or am I just forecasting it to be something specious?

I don’t know how my head and heart function, I really don’t know! Here, I was trying to keep that swearwords not to get preoccupied by any sort of emotionally devastating stuff, but just before I stand to that, there comes someone slowly being the toxic to my thoughts and intensions. The sweet words, the caring part, those “Miss You”, to the “Good Mornings” & the “Good Night”, and the sharing of the secrets, I mean those secrets you undertaken not to share with anyone, those unseen sides of you that you share, which no one else or very, very-very few have seen, and-and the 1^st time experiences of so many moments – “Oh wait! These are the devil which just feel like an angel!” that’s what my head tells me, don’t believe, don’t! And then the heart wants to make sure is it true or not, so it asks to the vary person, whatever he is doing he means it or not! And if the answer comes in a way, like “YES, it’s unlike I am like this with every one and blah…blah” that’s all, your so called soft part emerges, and your melted! And the tragedy begins…

(to be continued)