Exams

I have my CIE exams coming up, but I am still not in a vibration of studying and putting my self into that level of hard work. To be frank, I haven't even touched my books, and not even prepared any notes. I don't know why am I being so lazy. Though I know I should be working already, I cannot do that.

Sometime I wonder around, is it only me OR everyone else? Well, telling someone "Read"  and "Work hard"  is way to easy, and that's something even I suggest everyone when they say they have exams coming up. And that's the same thing I have been told. But i just cannot get into a vibration of reading, though I know I should.
Likewise, people comes up saying, " You should read, its your exams, if you don't read well, then the result ain't gonna come well; why aren't u reading? Stop all of your gadgets and start working!!!" I mean I do understand their words, I am not underestimating them but the thing is, I am just not able to that. I am aware of the importance of exams and all the other thing. But I just cannot do that, I don't know why? 

From today, I still have few months left for my CIE, but as I am not getting that energy of really working hard, I am postponing it, I am telling " I will read after a while", then it goes like " I will read after lunch" then " I will be reading before going for a sleep" then goes, "I will Read, tomorrow morning for sure" then again " I will be reading before the day ends" and the same thing goes on and on. I keep on postponing it, and the day comes of my exam, where I have to get my books and sit and read but even then I be like, "let me read after a few minutes" and then goes like "I will be reading after few hours"  and afterward what happens? "Oh-God" I try to wake up all night, but couldn't finish it up, and then be like " let me sleep, whatever happens - happens on that day, I will give my exam and whatever...." 

Yeah, that's what happens - (not all of that but something similar does happen) . 

But my point is, even though we are aware, why can't we really do that, why is it so hard...

I do know, what should I be doing, thats studying after all, but I don't know how to do it... I mean, not the way 'how to study' but : How to get into the mood of studying.

In my case what happens is, I do study, I get my time out, for study no matter what, but I cannot get into those books and study before my exams come up. I cannot sit and do early preparations, which is something I should be doing. Early preparation helps to relief my stress and helps to get a very good result. I know it but I cannot do it...

Similarly, even I go and study I cannot just set myself into that vibration. I study for few minutes and try to escape out and take break for more time than I should be taking. And I cannot aware myself not to do that.  

I do get a good result, but it's not something I want, though its well deserved result as per my hardwork I did but I cannot satisfy with what I did. I wanna do way too better than ever before. 

But I don't know what to do... My habit knocks me out. I cannot get all "A" , something I want, all because of my habit. So is it only me? Or is it a problem of every other student?  

I have lost that energy, but I wanna get it back. I wanna make myself well awared about my ambition, so I gotta workhard. 

The pressure of exam is way too much, because everyone has expectation on us, and more than that we have expectations on ourselves. 

Its unlike I don't study but it is I am not happy when I do that,  I cannot enjoy that process and I try to escape it, but again I force my self to do it because I have to do it, my exam is here and I cannot run away..

And as I force to do that, I am not happy to do that, and as I am not happy to do that, I just cannot do that.

I wanna enjoy this ride, I wanna enjoy my exams, like any other things I do. Everything I do, I do it, only when I am happy doing it, otherwise I leave it, I don't do it. But exams are something I cannot leave so I have to make it fun and make my enjoyable ride. Then only I can get what I want, a good result indeed...may not be all "A" but something satisfactory.

Hardwork is there but an enthusiasm is lost, and all I gotta do is find it..

Lastly,  "All the best" for your exam ! Be happy and get that enthusiasm while you are studying. So that you will enjoy it, try not escape it. Do Your Best in your exams...don't run away..it's just a exam and you can do it and pass with all "A's" , and in life we gotta give lots of other exams so try to face it with love and happiness, learn to make it your friend not an enemy.