A Phase

“so many thoughts that occupy your mind and gets you in……….."

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“What’s the thought behind the thoughts you are having”

Gosh, it's going crazy, the thoughts inside me- it is going crazy- sometimes it’s a roller coaster ride, whereas other time it’s like a black hole.

Like, it’s hard to identify and determine what I want, and what I am looking for!

I don’t know, It is just creepy! Like, I don’t know!

“Maybe I wanna go on a long drive, with music being played behind! Or maybe I want to have some similar experiences from the past, or else I want to escape this place and, go for a long trek to the hills and the mountains, or stay in my room, locked up and sleep all day and all night. Or maybe I want to do absolutely nothing…Maybe”

I Just Don’t Know- it’s complicated!

There are times I wonder, can “I” be less complicated, like can “I” have fewer complications??

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See, I have so many expectations “for real” it is just little too much at times, a hell lot of expectations from almost everything, and that’s what that makes it worst! Really-Really, really chaotic!

Written: April 11, 2019.

(unedited, straight from my mind to my desktop)